Depression is like having a mind that wants to die, but a body that wants to live. Freddie mercury said “I don’t wanna die but sometimes I wish I’d never been born at all.” The worst part of depression is no one understands. Even what makes it worse? The fact that we’r not able to say, “I’m depressed” without feeling guilty because in today’s society it’s a “trend”. Can’t even talk freely about it with someone because most of them haven’t even experienced this thing and have this status and so forth. Being told “just cheer up there’s so much to be happy about” is like telling a person with asthma “just breathe, there’s so much air”. Most people make joke on it. The depressed people are found usually saying ‘real life is a nightmare dream is wonderland’. It’s like being in another universe, like living in an infinite loneliness in a void. Dealing with depression is especially hard when the environment you’re in barely helps you and just acts like it’s not even there. It’s not even about a will to die, but about the lack of will to keep moving.
In other words, people can’t even pin point what really makes you feel depressed. Suicidal thoughts would just randomly pop in mind and feels like crying every time. Always feeling guilty and telling self for not being worth it, feeling lonely and insecure all the time, feeling elated but moments later feel like crying again and again. It’s complicated in a way that it twists mind to a certain degree and getting mood change and irritated at the smallest of things. It’s a void filled with emptiness and darkness. Not finding interest in the things being mostly loved and losing everything. People with depression can have happy days sometimes but doesn’t mean they aren’t constantly depressed. People usually say depression isn’t a mental illness clearly haven’t had it. Do you think it’s all a big conspiracy of doctors and scientists? Sure it might be over diagnosed like ADHD, but it’s not just a mood of the day. Depression can be described in a way that whenever people aren’t distracted about life then the mind strays off into thinking about that one thing might be killing inside and when that problem isn’t solved and knowing have to live with it for who knows how long might kill as well. Suffering from break-up is somewhat similar to depression as well especially when giving too much love and everything becoming toxic. The only way people will take depression seriously is when it is diagnosed as a Neurological disorder, rather than a mental disorder.
Depression is losing the will to literally do anything like not willing to sleep nor staying awake, not willing to eat not starving, not willing to live or die, not doing anything but simply stop existing, losing the will, love, hope having for others, getting alcoholic, the more wanting to get out of it but more turning into an emotionless person.
The only way to get rid of it is by getting help instead of crying or going through it every day of this life.